In my world lately I have been learning how to accept the "quiet no's" in my life. It seems that there have been many times lately when I have asked God for something and He has quietly responded, no, so quiet even sometimes that I think He has possibly not heard me. I have come to realize now over the last week or so that God answers each and every prayer but sometimes it is a quiet no that I have to listen for. This is very difficult because I often find myself asking God for a YES that slaps me in the face. God has presented me with various things over the past couple of months and put things in my mind and when I ask for them He does respond yes at times but other times it is the whisper of no that I hear. We often think that "no" is a bad answer as we always want to be told yes but I think that the No's are just as important and help protect us from bad decisions and bad paths for our lives. I know that when God tells me NO whether He screams it at me or whether He whispers it to me, the answer is No and there is a reason. I may not know the reason or understand the reason but the answer remains the same. I will praise God for the No's that he has whispered to me. The best way to hear the quiet no's is to be still and KNOW that HE is God.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Have you ever felt like you were second string? I know that I have had that feeling before and I don't like that feeling. That makes you feel so insecure about everything. ie...why don't they like? what did I do? am I not good enough? As adults we learn to deal with those feelings and realize that we should not let other people determine how we feel about ourselves. Yes we often fall into the trap of doubting ourselves but then we "put on our big girl panties" and move on realizing that we are important and valuable human beings. Now with that being said, how do you deal with your child possibly feeling like they are second string, second choice for something whether it be in a friendship, activity or whatever. I am getting a taste of that and I do not like it. I, of course think that my daughter is phenomenal. I know that in reality she is no more important in the grand scheme of things than anyone else but in my "mommy" mind she is the best. It really hurts to see my daughter be left out of something or be second choice. Right now, I dont even think that she realizes that she is second choice, but to me it is obvious. All I can do is help teach her to have good self esteem and not have her self worth based on what other people think of her. Now the only delima is - how do I teach her that??????
WellI haven't posted since September and alot has happened. Thanksgiving Christmas New Years Valentines etc. March 13th _ Madison turned 5. The day before her actual birthday, we had her birthday party at the bowling alley. She had an absolute blast. That night when I put her to bed she gave me a hug and said "You are the best Mommy ever. Thank you for everything today. Mommy, I will never be too old to be your baby doll." Then I am left sobbing over my 5 year old. I am very blessed to have this precious little girl in my life. Tucker is now 18 months old. Wow! he is growing too quick. He is now saying "Tank Tu" (thank you) and he gives the best kisses, whether you ask for one or not. He also plays peekaboo. He covers your face and says "wheredyougo" (where did you go) and then says "dareyouare" (there you are). Too cute. Tucker is in an extra lovey stage right now. In the mornings he is so extra sweet and letting you hold him. Love that part of this stage he is in.